I swear to fuck. I’ve never been so angry, children, I say children, teenagers running about near my house screaming and swearing at this time of night, making me nervous and unable to sleep. Makes me so angry, especially when I’m working in the morning. GRRR

Honestly. Just put your clothes away, Glitter you fuckwit. 

I hate procrastinating. THE INTERNET ISN’T GOING ANYWHERE.

Trying [& failing]

to get over him. Lol. 

I mean. I’m not in love with him or anything of the sort. I just, really enjoyed the time I spent with him and don’t feel like it’s come to the end of it’s course! 

I was sitting here telling myself that I don’t like him that much anyway, trying to list all the bad points in my head

& then another wee voice pops up like nah, who do you think you’re kidding?

Shut up voice of honesty, let voice of reason work it’s magic ¬¬

I think I’m going insane..

I’m pretty much

done.

I’m sick of being messed around and I’m sick of being single. 

I know I’m too picky for my own good and only seem to fall for people I can’t have for whatever reason. I’m just sick of being lead on and thinking I have a chance

“how to break a heart, it’s not difficult, even you could do it, if you tried. Just find a light, and switch it off, it’s as easy as blinking”

I never did tell tumblr about the few days we spent together, not really. But anyway we spent a couple of days, a night and a morning together. & it was honestly so lovely. We just laughed and he enjoyed my madness, he told me he never wanted to leave, but of course he had to. & thats nearly the last I’ve heard.. I miss him, I knew it would never be straight forward, his life is far too complicated for that. I guess I was a fool for thinking I could change things. 

It’s just, even after a week of barely speaking, he kissed me goodnight and I’ve not heard from him since. I’m just left longing and very confused.

& I mean, I’m in a better situation than he is. I’m not captured or trapped by any means. I just need to move on and find someone else. I just wish things would work out, my way, for once..

In a couple months time, when we get a flat sorted out, hopefully I’ll be feeling better. It’ll be hard being lonely when I’m with my girls constantly again, I’ll also have better means for seeing/meeting up with people as currently, I’m at the top of a hill in the posh part of a village in the middle of nowhere with few transport links and some overbaring parents..

pride & greed — ladyfrankensteinn

Pride - something that I like about myself, I like the way my mind works, most of the time anyway. Pain is poetic and I can make a positive out of almost everything and actually believe it. 

Greed - something that I can’t get enough of, apart from shoes? I’d like to say men, but it’s more mental torture. Also vinegar. I love vinegar, my insides should be pickled.